Today is really an agonising day.
Unpleasant slumber, exhausted physical condition, agitated mental sensation … that was my wake-up feelings.
I knew I couldn’t go into a fully at-throttle day. That’s not a thought to me, that’s a fact.
So, I decided to have a break, adjust myself and think about strategies for a day.
Then things went even worse.
After having the reheated simmered beef cooked yesterday, my wisdom tooth problem reoccurred.
The beef getting stuck in the gap between wisdom tooth and other tooth, I couldn’t get it out. I brushed my teeth, ferociously. I used sticks, clipped aluminium and even little scissors. All of them played no effects except from making my gum swollen and hurt.
I was really annoyed, almost annoyed to tears.
Then I reminded myself, leaders do not stick in feelings, they seek ways to solve problems.
So, I’ve decided to get the wisdom teeth removed, as soon as possible. It might cost around 600 bucks, extremely expensive compared doing the surgery back in China. but I really have no choice. It affects my normal life right now.
I made an appointment, tomorrow. So hopefully it would go well.
After a nap, did thing go better?
Absolutely not. The gluttony idea emerged again, and it wouldn’t give up roaming around my head.
I thought about the idea seriously, because if I postpone the gluttony process, then it’s just a delay, I must find some way to eliminate the idea, as least eliminate it recently. It seemed the best way is just to have a gluttony, thought it has endless disadvantages, still, it’s the most efficient method to help me give up gluttony in a future short period.
Then my moment of clarity came to me and I put it into action. I don’t need to glutton and then spew, I can imagine going out for dinner so cook a lot of stuff today. What really tortures me, is the thought that eating too much is undesired, it will increase weight, etc. But when I persuade myself that I can eat what I want today, then the gluttony desire just will disappear in several days. I can save it as a reward of finishing daily vocabulary reciting and 2 additional lists.
That was a spark of genius.
Again, always find ways to solve the problem. Onward.
